I am going INSANE.

And no, not in a good way. I'm already there.

So April 6th (about a week and a half) ago, I fell off my horse and got trampled. Woot, woot. Other than a bad sprained ankle I was fine. I've still got bruises and scrapes, but that's okay. But this ANKLE, needs to go away. It's driving me insane. I'm an outdoorsy person. I hate being inside. I can barely walk, and I want to be outside with the horses, or just outside. Since then I've only been outside to go to school--not doing SHIT for my mood.

And then my boyfriend and I got into this fight, which is actually all my fault. I'm not going to tell that story, but when I get upset I tend to go from sad to angry. And when I get angry I either A. go outside and run until I can't breathe, or B. Start to snap at everything and just want to scream. And since I can't run we're obviously going with B. So it kinda feels like things couldn't suck anymore right now. I can't see my horse, who always puts a smile on my face, and my boyfriend is sad, so I'm sad, so he's not doing much for the happy department either.

And then I feel like a failure because he's sad because of something I can't change, and I hate it so much. And I really want to go outside and run and scream, but then I'll probably never be able to walk again. But it's getting more and more tempting as the days go by. If my ankle hurt so bad I couldn't stand it then maybe I couldn't think about the misery anymore.

Eck. Cheers to anyone who read that.

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Eck. Cheers to anyone who read that.

Thats why we have a rant section.

Is your ankle so bad that you can't put any wieght on it?
Because if you can safely put some on maybe a walk outside isn't beyond you. It would be a walk not a run.

Sorry for the limited advice.
I'm an indoor person myself so can't think of things for you to do, being an outdoor person that you are.

Anyways hope your ankle fixes up quick, so that you get fix everything else up quick.

I agree with Valkarma but heck who wouldn't in your rather harsh predicament

The only other thing that I coud suggest would be to have a talk with your boyfriend about the thing tha's getting him down, sometimes just talking about it can make you feel better, so who knows eh?

Umm now for snapping at things the only thing I can suggest is WOOSAH!! but that's being abit cheeky

Haha. I'm usually fine being an indoor person, I really only like to be out with horses. But at this point out at all would be good.

Yeah, I can walk, but it makes my ankle worse. =/ So the more I do it the longer it'll take to get better. So every day is different as to whether or not I'd rather get better or get out.

Hmm... Here's an idea, maybe I should learn how to walk on my hands. Then I could go outside AND entertain everyone who sees me. xD What do you guys think?

Meh too much hassle tbh, suppose it would be nice for you to go out butI think you could end up hurting yourself even more, which is v. baaaad!! Also what happens if you go over on one of your wrists? Both bad anlle and wrist would be well shit!! Woo allowed to swear due to being in RANT section

anyways I'm off to bed so my advice is ather tired advice lol......night

If you don't have stairs like and a swivel desk chair with wheels.
Wheel yourself outside in the swivel desk chair or any other computer desk chair.
There you go outside, but not bother the ankle.

I get everything else but what I really wanna say this don't try to walk. When or if you can't walk again you're gonna be frustrated with yourself and everyone else around you. It wouldn't help anything.